If I were to start writing all the writing all the ways that I love Jamie Bagley I would burst into tears and would not be able to finish posting her beautiful words.
I met Jamie when were both in the summer semester of Story Sessions. It was a beautiful yet trying time as a learned how to let my voice escape from a trapped cage.
Jamie was always the one who encouraged me. Her comments on my posts, her kind words and now her beautiful letters that come in the mail that I pin right next to mirror; so that I can read them every day. Mostly it’s her believing for me that I am something worthy of greatness….. When I cannot for myself.
I am above honored that she agreed to be a part of this series. We had many hilarious conversations about the pictures, what to write, what to use to write and if to possibly be, dare I say it……
Scandalous (collective GASP)
Enter Jamie and her beautiful words
Body of Messages
Sometimes I want to break the mirror
Before it breaks me
With the insults,
That says I am both
Not enough and too much.
I pursue what it means
To be “just right”
And it doesn’t look like masks
Or running in place for 10000 steps
In hopes the weight will
I need to write words to myself- on myself
To let the truth sink in deep,
With my senses.
Perhaps I just need new eyes
To see the beauty
To write is enabling me
To erase the conditions I put
On loving the form
That was gifted to me.
These are the words my soul needs to hear;
The ones that will inform my vision:
“Oh belly, those stretching scars you’ve had
Since you became a mother
Are not at all a shame or waste.
You don’t have to be flat to be a wonder;
Round is the shape of beauty, too.
It gives you a sense
Of the depth of Creator love
To bear a wounded globe
Beneath your heart;
One whose heaviness
Can make you short of breath.
A Mother’s Love is willing to carry that burden.”
It is glorious
To love the parts of myself
I struggle to accept.
(Even the red-dotted upper arms.)
It is good
And it is holy.
In the eyes of my Father,
I am sacred.
So are you, my friend. So are you.
Jamie Wright Bagley lives in Willowbrook, IL with her husband and 3 children. She spends her days homeschooling and caring for her free-spirited offspring. She prioritizes family and simple living. She will never ever turn down a good cuppa tea. In stolen time she writes poetry and music, blogs athttp://avanomaly.blogspot.com/ and occasionally hangs out on Twitter @BagsEnd04.
January 11, 2014 at 11:07 am
Beautiful, Jamie. Just like you. Thanks so much for hosting this series, Bethany. What a gift. (And Jamie? Thanks for your sweet, HANDWRITTEN note to me a couple of weeks ago. I don’t do hand writing anymore, so I’m grateful for it when it shows up. So kind of you.)
January 11, 2014 at 11:08 am
Beautiful! Beautiful! Beautiful!
January 11, 2014 at 12:53 pm
Oh my gosh, Jamie. Balling my eyes out. I cannot even express the way in which your words brought healing to me today. Thank you.
January 11, 2014 at 1:31 pm
Amen… this is holy ground. Thanks, Bethany, for hosting this awesome series and much love to you both! Jamie, you are so beautiful! 🙂
January 11, 2014 at 5:26 pm
Thank you all for your kind words. You are all so precious and full of wisdom and beauty. It is especially a privilege to write for your blog, Bethany. Love to all.