If I were to start writing all the writing all the ways that I love Jamie Bagley I would burst into tears and would not be able to finish posting her beautiful words.
I met Jamie when were both in the summer semester of Story Sessions. It was a beautiful yet trying time as a learned how to let my voice escape from a trapped cage.
Jamie was always the one who encouraged me. Her comments on my posts, her kind words and now her beautiful letters that come in the mail that I pin right next to mirror; so that I can read them every day. Mostly it’s her believing for me that I am something worthy of greatness….. When I cannot for myself.
I am above honored that she agreed to be a part of this series. We had many hilarious conversations about the pictures, what to write, what to use to write and if to possibly be, dare I say it……
Scandalous (collective GASP)
Enter Jamie and her beautiful words
Body of Messages
Sometimes I want to break the mirror
Before it breaks me
With the insults,
The lies,
The disdain
That says I am both
Not enough and too much.
I pursue what it means
To be “just right”
And it doesn’t look like masks
Or tucks
Or running in place for 10000 steps
In hopes the weight will
Melt
Tighten
Cinch
Vanish!
I need to write words to myself- on myself
To let the truth sink in deep,
Embracing it
With my senses.
Perhaps I just need new eyes
To see the beauty
Already there.
To write is enabling me
To erase the conditions I put
On loving the form
That was gifted to me.
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These are the words my soul needs to hear;
The ones that will inform my vision:
“Oh belly, those stretching scars you’ve had
Since you became a mother
Are not at all a shame or waste.
You don’t have to be flat to be a wonder;
Round is the shape of beauty, too.
It gives you a sense
Of the depth of Creator love
To bear a wounded globe
Beneath your heart;
One whose heaviness
Can make you short of breath.
A Mother’s Love is willing to carry that burden.”
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It is glorious
And empowering
To love the parts of myself
I struggle to accept.
(Even the red-dotted upper arms.)
It is good
And it is holy.
In the eyes of my Father,
I am sacred.
So are you, my friend. So are you.
Jamie Wright Bagley lives in Willowbrook, IL with her husband and 3 children. She spends her days homeschooling and caring for her free-spirited offspring. She prioritizes family and simple living. She will never ever turn down a good cuppa tea. In stolen time she writes poetry and music, blogs athttp://avanomaly.blogspot.com/ and occasionally hangs out on Twitter @BagsEnd04.
January 11, 2014 at 11:07 am
Beautiful, Jamie. Just like you. Thanks so much for hosting this series, Bethany. What a gift. (And Jamie? Thanks for your sweet, HANDWRITTEN note to me a couple of weeks ago. I don’t do hand writing anymore, so I’m grateful for it when it shows up. So kind of you.)
January 11, 2014 at 11:08 am
Beautiful! Beautiful! Beautiful!
January 11, 2014 at 12:53 pm
Oh my gosh, Jamie. Balling my eyes out. I cannot even express the way in which your words brought healing to me today. Thank you.
January 11, 2014 at 1:31 pm
Amen… this is holy ground. Thanks, Bethany, for hosting this awesome series and much love to you both! Jamie, you are so beautiful! 🙂
January 11, 2014 at 5:26 pm
Thank you all for your kind words. You are all so precious and full of wisdom and beauty. It is especially a privilege to write for your blog, Bethany. Love to all.